I'm sorry I haven't posted anything for a while. My reason? A mixture of summer, no inspiration and laziness. But never fear I am back!
Tomorrow is my birthday, so the last few days I've been doing a lot of thinking while I am still my sixteen year old self. Mostly thinking about the past 365 days and wondering if I've used my sixteenth year to the fullest. Also I came up with this idea to write down what it means to be 16 for me. For myself and for you, so in years to come I can look back and reminisce on my youth. *solo violin plays sad music*, and so that you can see if you relate to any of this, whether your sixteen or not.
Sixteen years. Despite all your fears of being stolen in the night or being in an aeroplane crash, you have made it through sixteen years of life. Nearly three quarters done of teenage life. You could see that as a good or bad thing! Good in the sense that you can soon leave behind the immature people you're forced to go to school with, bad in the sense that you will soon have the responsibilities that adulthood brings with it.
So what does it really mean to be sixteen? For me, it means shouting stupid things at your parents that you later regret saying, feeling that no one knows who you really are, not knowing yourself who you really are, going to parties and pretending you don't have a care in the world, getting up ridiculously late because you don't have a care in the world, feeling like you need to have your whole life planned out because everyone else seems to, loving boys, hating boys, feeling jealous of girls who have boys, crying by yourself but you don't know why, laughing with your friends over the silliest things, wanting to be independent and free, wanting to stay in your room all day, not minding school, hating school, new experiences, old routines and a hell of a lot of hormones!
So to future Inkspots, I hope you look back fondly on when you were sixteen. With one day left, I can definitely say I've had an amazing year, with all the ups and downs that come with life. I'm feeling emotional yet optimistic. Emotional because sixteen years have gone by without be hardly realising it and optimistic because hopefully I have plenty more years of good memories and life changing moments to come. Here's to year seventeen and all that come with it!
